I lost half my brain in drugs lab explosion- I’m paying the price for my stupidity & my son said I looked like a monster

A DAD who lost half his brain in a drug lab explosion has shared how he is “paying the price” for his mistake. Rapper Niko Brenner, 37, was left looking like ” a monster” after he had big parts of his skull removed following the blast. NewsflashNiko lost big part of his head in the explosion[/caption] NewsflashThe rapper had to have parts of his skull removed[/caption] NewsflashDr. Knarf said he was left looking like a monster[/caption] The father of a six-year-old boy said: “It hurts a lot that I will never be able to climb a tree with my son. “I made a huge mistake, drove my whole life up against the wall – and I’m paying the price for it.” Niko, also known as Dr. Knarf, from Cologne, Germany, had been cooking cannabis oil in butane gas when the bottles exploded from a spark produced by his fridge, blasting him through the window of his basement studio. The incident that happened in February 2017, caused him severe head injuries with surgeons being forced to remove half of his skull after his brain started swelling. READ MORE ON WORLD NEWS CHILLING FIND Mystery as human LEG found by highway & cops don’t know if victim is alive AGATHA GUSTY Brit holiday warning as Hurricane Agatha hits Mexico sending tourists fleeing Niko said: “Forty per cent of the surface of my skin is burned. I’ve had almost 50 surgeries so far. “People think that the doctors took away half of my brain, but fortunately that’s not the case.” Recalling the first time he saw himself after the incident he said: “It was an absolute shock. I looked like a monster. “My son was one year old at the time. I was terrified that he would even recognise me.” Most read in The Sun TUI LATE TUI to cancel hundreds of flights next month causing more holiday misery for Brits 'SIMPLICITY IS KEY' Man Utd's new 2022-23 away kit leaked with white shirt and black shorts WHAT'S THE SCORE Carroll's 3-in-a bed Dubai girl reveals what really happened in hotel room CRACKING ON Love Island stars who embraced curves after 'starving themselves' for show OH NO COCO Ice-T's wife Coco slammed for wearing thong at pool with daughter Chanel, 6 BAR-RED ENTRY Spain holiday warning - Brits face closed restaurants & bars at top resorts He said the worst thing after the accident was “not walking, not being able to move properly anymore. It saddens me not to be able to play the guitar, piano and keyboards anymore.” The musician also suffered four strokes and was left paralysed on one side. He now relies on a wheelchair and a walking aid. He said it is theoretically possible to reconstruct his skull bone with an implant, “but there is not enough scalp due to the burns to reinsert a skull bone replacement”. To make things worse, the rapper had to file for bankruptcy as he ended up owing over £200,000 for hospital costs. And he is also threatened with a trial for trading in narcotics and negligently causing an explosive blast. But these setbacks have not deterred the rapper, who has been archiving files for a historical research office since 2019. Read More on The Sun PRECIOUS MEMORIES Deborah James' family give update as she has one last girly sleepover TUI LATE TUI to cancel hundreds of flights next month causing more holiday misery for Brits He said: “Giving up is not an option, you have to keep going somehow. Before, I was very egocentric and selfish. “One insight I am grateful for today is a great deal of humility.” We pay for your stories! Do you have a story for The Sun news desk? Email us at exclusive@the-sun.co.uk or call 0207 782 4104. You can WhatsApp us on 07423 720 250. We pay for videos too. Click here to upload yours Click here to get The Sun newspaper delivered for FREE for the next six weeks.